The first 20 years of my life were entirely too easy. I look back and see how lucky I was and feel blessed beyond measure. Oh, I know those first years weren't perfect but what they lacked make them feel that way, looking back. No losses. No real grief. No hurt. No hard stuff.
Fast forward to the part of my life when I feel like everyday is a struggle. I have lots of good. LOTS of it. I am lucky. I am blessed. But daily, I have a cross to bear. A cross that hurts. Much like many of you that I know. My cross just so happens to be infertility. Some I know right now are carrying a cross of a sick child, job loss, stress, death of a loved one, uncertainty of what the future holds, fear, illness, taking care of someone they love, waiting, a difficult relationship, a hurting heart, financial difficulties, etc. I know there are so many more...and I know I am not alone.
My friend Pam(ella), sent me this cartoon. I am not usually a cartoon reader, and I usually delete stuff before reading it. But for some reason I read it. I think God knew I needed it. I think it is one of the most life-changing things I have ever seen. For me, anyways. I hope it will be for you, as well.
Thanks, Pam(ella), for letting Him use you in my life. Simple as it may seem. This is one lesson that you passed on, that will stay with me forever. Love you, girl.
Thankfully, He hasn't answered. I need this cross. Weird. Hard. Tears flow even as I type this.
Learning to be thankful for my cross.
6 comments:
Wow, that is powerful.
WOW!!! Sooooo powerful.....tears are flowing down my face as I type this. I needed that image more than I knew as a reminder of why my daily struggles have purpose. It feels like so many of my days are spent wondering why, why this special little girl and why me? I feel most days like a failure in that little girl's eyes yet she is my cross that will carry me over and through the tuff times. Until this moment I never perceived my situation this ways but how it has forever changed my outlook. I cannot thank you enough or Pam for sharing this seemingly simple message yet for me life changing. As always I will continue to pray for you and your precious miracle and continue to be inspired every time I read this blog. Thank you for being you and being real in your struggles because for this very moment it has forever changed my life.
Jen
this made me tear up. You are wonderful and such an inspiration!
That is definitely a different way to look at this...made me cry.
Whoa, thanks for sharing that....it was truly beautiful. I know God is molding us with each cross....each celebration...each step of our lives. I have to admit that I still question sometimes, but this hit me the other day....I know it is called Newton's Law....but I think Newton stole it from God! :)"For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction." Think about that!! Isn't the good just THAT much better when there's been bad?! Isn't the sweet just THAT much sweeter when there's been sour?! One day both of our crosses will be lifted entirely and the release is going to be ..........no words. Love you~
Some how I missed this when you posted it. Today I see it...and today I really need to see it. It's been one of those days when I question God as to when this HUGE, long struggle in my life will come to an end or if it's not going to end...when will it all come together and make sense to me. Somedays I wish he was done molding me. I want to live my full potential right now! Selfish thinking I know :/. Love you Misty. SO happy you are one step closer to meeting your baby.
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